*my heart beats*

not funny for this post .

the final post im talking about the things .

still dont believe i got nothing else to explain the problem .

you guys said that im close to geyun and jeann .

but did you all ever thought why ?

because im like invisible beside you guys ?

sometimes i really dont believe im your friend .

cause what upp to you guys will never get my in the part .

im always left out ! i guess you all didnt even notice huh .

like holidays going out . i was never called . even when im called . it's all because im quite close to the person you wanna go find .

class activities wearing of clothes . you all got prepare to wear the same thing like all wearing class-tee . but no one inform me before and im left out wearing odd .

when we go out together . im always the lonely one walking alone behind . im tired of squeezing in between you guys just for you guys to notice im there too .

im really too left out . and i really tried to do what you guys wanted me to do . like helps needed , like in need of cash ? in need of accompany ? in need of things i will tired to go buy and pass it to you ?

i really tried hard to play the part you all wanted . and im really tired . i didnt rush you guys to pay for the money . i try to reject fionn and accompany you guys . i tried to get some time out and go find the things you guys wanted me to help and pass it you you guys .

i do face it . sometimes i didnt help in group work , cause i promise fionn to go down and find them . im sorry . sometimes i rejected to accompany you guys . cause i didnt see fionn for very long time . and maybe because she is in bad mood . sometimes i cant find the thing that you all wanted , im sorry for not trying my best to find it and lost my words .

but yet , i really still suspect im a friend to you guys ?

you guys dont have to answer . and i know you guy wont even bother to answer .

you can ignore me . but i wont ignore you guys :')

i will still try to accept the part i was suppose to be in when you guys needed me :')

because i just need someone to realise im there B')

takecare ~ (to all )

i know how much she love him .

but she did ask me what happened at first .

and i you think i shouted to sheila . i also got nothing to say .

but you can go ahead and ask chaysen . he was beside me always at that time .

and for the shelia and alina . at first at the side there i put J. betrayed .is refering to lijun . no wrong huh ? as i stated above . i was angry at the beginning .

and i delete it off at night .

and for alina's she was saying about the post and as stated below i was talking about geyun . so is that a different thing ? cause one is J. and one is bitch ?

for the going out stuff . i had stated above . whatever you guys think .

i didnt do the project . even i really did . it was like 5-10 mins .

cause i really cant do reserch and all this . im sorry about that .

handphone numbers are last year aint it ? i took youjin's number . i admit .

but after the first message i have message him .

did lijun ever asked me help her ask him things ?

and please state other people i have got from her phone ?

and i did message them and interfere their life ?

friendship as in i really thanks weiren and wenping at that moment .

or should i say there is one more person i should thanks .

that's shelia . she called me at that moment .

if she didnt . i guess i will be slapped more .

and i asked fionn for help . fionn asked me to asked wenping .

and the thing is wenping go tell weiren de .

then wenping asked me to call weiren .

and weiren helped me ~ (to jaslin)

thing i goning to say is also the same .

i told you and alina different thing cause one is asking for J. and one is post .

they aren't the same person . that's why it's the different person im telling you guys .

i didnt hate her after that the next morning . but deleted the side that night .

i know i might be wrong in you guys .

but you guys dont even believe that i didnt shout .

what's there more to say ?

am i a true friend that you all trusted ?

NO~ (to shelia)

last and for all .

im sorry if the side words i said harm or what .

but the posting i really swear .

it's not you .

you can choose not to believe me . or even dont be friends with me anymore .

but i hope , you really get it . i didnt hate you after the next morning .

because human need times to think .

and i did rush action that afternoon . and thought for that night to next morning .

i wish to be friend . but i guess it's too late to all you guys .

jaslin , shelia , alina and you .

cause it was like okayy . you guys said i lied .

i didnt know if i did or not lah .

but im just sorry . and i know things done cant be undone .

so im not asking for your forgiveness . but your understanding for the posting

~(to lijun)

last thing .

you guys said you hate liars huh ?

but aint you guys also liars ?

you guy told me not to tell others about some things .

yet not even 15 mins .

everyone knows about it .

wtf man ? you sure this is not lying ?

SURE ?