Affiliates.
boos! (trying to act normal -.-)
laughs* topic topic topic! it's about,,,,,,, HIM!
i have been thinking long... and finally i got my last decision from brandon iskhanda chan w.c'S choice.
i asked him~
would you choose to love someone who dont know who you are
OR
choose someone who know who you are?
of course everyone will choose the second one right?
but i did the opposite, i choosen the first one.
at first, i found it actually not bad. cause you dont have to care your actions being too chor lor and he saw. or like being close to guys and playing with them, and even chatting with him in msn feel awesome already...
but,,, i was so wrong. he didnt even notice me before, never before.
now 2 months 6 days of loving him has pass.
and guess what? he still didnt notice me at all.
what's this? it's ignorance~
and i really feels very bad about that. seriously bad! im dying, really dying.
i know lijun is asking me not to fall for it from the beginning, as she know it's going to be really tiring.
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this our conversation. (green=>me orange=>lijun)
he ask for
stead?!
ya, why?
hahas! AT WHERE?
SUNSHINE?
PHONE?
MSN?
face to faceee. aiyom why you so ji dong?
WHERE?
AT AT AT?!
don't tell you. HEHEHHHEE. MUST DO SOMETHING THEN I TELL
YOU =x
wanying what thing?!
don't know lehs. Hahas=x
KAOHS~
help you get youjin's kiss?
HAHAHA NO
THEN?!
give up on *****?(she did put the name. but i cancel. as it's a secret.) Cause really very
tiring for you lehs
wanying no. i rather dont
know then :)
HAhahha/ =x
wanying hahas.
;D
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but i continue my hope.
but for now and on, i think it's time for me to wake upp.
stoping dream. he will NEVER! notice me.
forget that love and rest myself well.
cause i found out. after i fell for him, my life changed.
i became i midnight kid. i wake upp at 6pm or later, and sleep at 7am or later.
it dont seem normal to me, and i have change to get sadd easily.
like looking at couples being so sweet? eg.
strawberryqirlfriend&R, ahgong&baby, cutie&son.
i dont know what's wrong with me? i know that's abit of jealous, but i think,,, it's more of disappointed about myself.(zi beii)
laughs* nevermind.
the thing here now is,,,,, i decided to let it go. forget about everything.
and go back to normal~ xD
but i want to say.
i never regret choosing him.
i still love you deep inside! xD
(maybe) hahas! xp
just press play if want to listen.
dont have to see the video.
cause i like the song alot. but only this video have-.-
THElyrics.
童话演唱团-Boy I Love You
你爱不爱我啊?你到底爱不爱我啊?说!
BOY I LOVE YOU
想要对你SAY HI
在三米之外 又红着脸逃开
哦真是奇怪 从有始以来
还没有男孩 让我这样期待
这份感觉难道就是所谓的爱
我突然变得看不开
我在和自己做着拔河赛
不知是否该要对你坦白
BOY I LOVE YOU
你真是够厉害
我被你主宰
就将自卑打败
我想我应该把内幕公开
因为我发现你已无法取代
爱你像新穿的衣服的畅快
向窗外的忧郁拨开
勇敢其实就在我口袋
不敢拿出来 怎么会明白
BOY I LOVE YOU
你真是够厉害
我被你主宰
就将自卑打败
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
你怎么人人能爱 我真想要离开
你却突然看我脸
大声对我说 我喜欢你
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
你爱不爱我啊?你到底爱不爱我啊?说!
BOY I LOVE YOU
想要对你SAY HI
在三米之外 又红着脸逃开
哦真是奇怪 从有始以来
还没有男孩 让我这样期待
这份感觉难道就是所谓的爱
我突然变得看不开
我在和自己做着拔河赛
不知是否该要对你坦白
BOY I LOVE YOU
你真是够厉害
我被你主宰
就将自卑打败
我想我应该把内幕公开
因为我发现你已无法取代
爱你像新穿的衣服的畅快
向窗外的忧郁拨开
勇敢其实就在我口袋
不敢拿出来 怎么会明白
BOY I LOVE YOU
你真是够厉害
我被你主宰
就将自卑打败
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
你怎么人人能爱 我真想要离开
你却突然看我脸
大声对我说 我喜欢你
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
BOY I LOVE YOU
意外的精彩
AND BOY I NEED YOU
最合身的爱
我想我应该 把内幕公开
因为我发现 你已无法取代
