i dont know how should i say, but the whole day, i have been thinking... about you. when im stone-ing at home, when im bathing, when im on the cab, when im buying my mother's birthday cake, when im in the lift, when im stone-ing at my grandma house, and in every every of my dreams,,,,, it's you~ most of my friends told me~ 'stop dreaming~ it's impossible girl. you're nothing to him. loving him in secret will be hard. you'll get hurt again and again.' but, dont all of you think that if all this hard works get his attention, it's really worth it? maybe some of you think it's silly but as all of you think~ i also want to give up arh. you think very easy mehs? i can't stop it!? i want to, i really want to. but it's really hard to. smile-s are fading. nothing seem real. everything is getting blur in my eyes.
每天的每天，我期待的爱情从不存在。没有人会喜欢我这种胖妞的。没有人！没有人！心酸的事一天比一天多，痛苦的回忆每天在我脑海中飘来飘去，但没有人知道我的心灵。大家只知道我天天挂在脸上的微笑，没有人知道我的心里的伤心与难过。我真的真的收够了！有谁可以让我对着他诉苦而不感到厌烦呢？应该没有人可以忍受吧。我真的好孤单！ im use-less~
